so tomorrow I'm going to the doctor's to see how my condition's coming along and to be honest I'm a bit nervous since I haven't been taking my medicine lately *is prepared to be scolded* it's not that I don't want to take it (which I don't) it's just that I keep forgetting to (since I have to take nine different medicines, 3 of which I have to take every three hours D; how can I not forget?). Another reason I'm nervous is because my condition has been acting up more (longer in length (for hours in comparison to the minutes it would ussually last) and a little less painful than b-4 but the length worsens the feeling) and I'm afraid my condition is worsening.

On the other end I've been drawing more lately which makes me very happy. I've also been getting along better with a lot of my teachers since the begining of this week which makes me feel more confortable in class. I've also started to actually talk to people I'm ussually too shy to talk to and I've been getting along prety well with them (we broke the ice last week ) I really enjoy that because then I'm not so self conscious and I don't feel as invisible and out of place like before. I feel like I'm finaly begining to have a normal life again out of my confort zone like I did before I moved here (god I'm so slow at progressing XD).

One thing I've noticed and I'm very happy about is that I'm becoming faster at drawing and a little bit better at proportions :3 (it's also happening in my ap computer programing class ) now I have to work in color D; but hey there's always room for improvement!

~sorry to bore you people but I hope you have a good night

edit: and for those of you who have noticed my lack of hunger. actually I wouldn't call it lack of hunger (because I still get hungry) as much as lack of apetite after smelling the actual food which lately makes me nauseas. And it is also not the smell as much as how heavy it feels when I smell it that it makes me want to puke (anything heavier than yogurt or fruit will have this effect on me milk is fine of course ). Stupid stomach *punches* D; and that has yet another toll on me who now is running out of energy much faster than before (also two three hour night sleep night's aren't the best for storing energy) which leads to my now daily headaches and might have something to do with my condition acting up or vise versa >.< yay for shitty life style.